I did it again. 🤦🏾♂️ I allowed stress to make my heart go a-fib last week. 4th time in my life! It went normal after s couple days rest and relaxation. How many times do I have to learn the same lesson? I have to get rid of my arrhythmia attitude.
After work, I usually am in a frenzy about the daily grind. If something made me mad at work, I’d bring it home. Then, everything at home and everyone had to be perfect. Yes, as I’ve indicated in several posts, I can be very anal. My wife says I’m like a drill sergeant.
Lately, I’ve been making conscious decisions to leave issues in their place. I’ve also been trying to live the serenity prayer in my daily work day. “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time.
I like things super clean, but with four kids that’s not reality. The serenity prayer is made for that exact situation. I am truly leaning on God and letting him handle the details I usually try to manipulate.
I also truly believe that my daily meditations and my new workout regimen have been very good for my mental health. I feel pretty awesome right now.
As I do these things to remove stress, my mind automatically focuses on adding value to the things that really matter, namely my family.
In my non-stressed state, I am able to spend a lot of quality time with the children. For me that’s huge. I’d like to create a lot of happy memories for them, instead of memories of an overbearing father. It’s probably working too good. I need to find balance, as my wife has pointed out. I can get to the point where I am chilling and playing a little too much.
For example, I need to check out the situation, before I come home and start-up a music fest / dance party…
I’ll do better. I’m beyond beating myself up. I just need to remember the benefits of not stressing about so many things.
I’ve got to drop the arrhythmia attitude.
God is good. 😄