I am still here. I just finished a summer vacation, followed by some “catch up” time at work. I have also been staying healthy. Working out and eating properly. I’m currently down about 17 lbs. I want to focus on how I “feel” today.
If your remember my last “health-centered” entry, I discussed what I’ve been doing to lose weight. You can read that post here. There’s no secret science to this. It’s good old fashioned calorie watching. More calories out than calories in. Period.
If you’d like some insight into what triggered this, you can read that here.
So how do I feel? Great! My plan has not wavered. I have stayed fairly consistent. No I am not perfect. I have days where I go over my allotted calories. I have days where I don’t exercise. I don’t beat myself up. I’m human. I’m doing this partly to reduce stress in my life, so worrying about being perfect would be very counterproductive.
My spiritual time of reading and meditation has been more consistent. The Bible app is great and keeps reminding me to read. I’m to the point now where if I don’t read and pray, I feel weird. I am slowly beginning to think that I have much more potential than I have been showing, as my meditations have been all about “being the best I can be”. It’s sort of scary because, I am already tremendously blessed. I wonder what God has in store for me, if I stay on this path? I think I need to keep working hard and utilizing my faith. I feel like God wants me to do something.
The weight loss has been going good. Last weigh in I was 223. Down from 240. I feel like I should not call this a diet or a weight loss program. Those things inherently have an end. Instead, I am saying “this is who I am now, this is my mindset”. I am very conscious of my food intake and exercise.
Through my health issues, I also found out I have sleep apnea. My first c-pap machine trial failed. I needed to have 5 hours a night on the machine for them to write me a prescription for a personal machine. I only got about 2 hours a night. Needless to say, sleeping with a mask is uncomfortable and very foreign. I subconsciously removed the mask each night. My sleep lab called me the other day to try out a c-pap machine with a humidifier. I told them I need to talk to somebody about maybe using a full mask or redoing the initial test to see if I still have sleep apnea. According to the first test, I am at the low-end of the sleep apnea spectrum. (I stop breathing 5-12 times per hour) My wife says I haven’t been snoring as much so I think the weight loss has been helping that situation. Funny what you can heal when you treat your body right. It’s only been a month and a half.
I feel surprisingly confident. Not overly confident or cocky, just confident. I have been getting stronger on my road bike and in the gym.
The road bike has been awesome. It’s great on my knees and ankles (no more pounding on those joints). I have been having a great time exploring my neighborhood on two wheels. I am riding about 10-12 miles each time out. There are a lot of hills where I live so that is a great workout in itself. I am avg. about 16 mph.
The gym gains have been harder to come by, as my body isn’t the same as it was when I was in my mid-20’s. My muscles need more stretching and more time to recover. If I feel strong in the gym, I have to resist the temptation to go “harder”. Back in the day, there was a time when I would want to “out-lift” everyone in the gym. I would purposely put on more weight than you or do more reps if you were working out next to me. Today, I stay in my lane. I don’t care about what other people are doing or lifting. If I push it too hard and pull something, I won’t be working out at all. I am 41. I have accepted it.
I feel like I am reinventing myself. It feel like it will be a good thing.